Friday, January 4, 2008

An Explanation

I know I haven't posted in several weeks. I know, I'm sorry, but I just couldn't do it. Shortly after my last post I reached a breaking point in my sanity. I found myself faced with a few options. I could either 1) shave my head in a public place like a certain celebrity who has received a lot of press lately or I could 2) check myself into emotional rehab.

The rehab option seemed like a lot healthier option to me. So the last few weeks I have just been trying to get by. Luckily for me, I have good people who love me and have been taking good care of me. My sister flew in from Utah to provide some support, and Steve has really stepped up and helped out a lot.

I've been spending a lot of time reflecting and I finally feel like I am on the road to recovery. Life is getting better, and I am able to function a little better each day. I am so glad that I am surrounded by people who care about me and I am so grateful for a Heavenly Father who loves me enough to slap me up the side of my head occasionally. Because sometimes I need that, even though it hurts.

I promise there will be less whining and more pictures in a few days.

17 comments:

Shayleen Lunt said...

Jamie - Please don't shave your head! I love your new "do"!
I really hope you know that there are many of us out here who would be more than happy to help out. I'm sure I've added to your "breaking point" and I'M SORRY! I'll do better too!

:P, corrie said...

I think we all go through difficult times, and you're more woman than me to admit it. I'm glad you feel like you're on the road to recovery. You're amazing!

Louann and Bari said...

Awww------you can cry and vent and post whatever you need - when ever you need. WE LOVE YOU ! ! !
And ditto= you are an amazing woman and mom-
Welcome back!

ANTSYLLI said...

I, for one, am delighted that you chose the emotional rehab road as opposed to the shaving of your head. Each of us has to find our own way of coping with the stress in our lives and the process of doing this sometimes can be more frustrating than the actual stress. Always remember that you have friends willing to listen, willing to help and eager to let you know just how much you are loved. Glad you are back to blogging. I missed reading your posts--who cares if you whine a little!

Leslie said...

May I recommend a good stiff drink?? My drink of choice: chocolate malted milk. That's for the day to day stiff drinks; for the really hard stuff, I treat myself to a good ole shake -- of whatever flavor I'm currently craving. Perhaps this is not the healthiest coping mechanism, but my taste buds have never complained. Remember, I'm here for you, and I totally get it.

cassie said...

Jamie, can I just tell you how much I love you. I have loved getting to know you since you have moved into the ward. I know we aren't the closest of friends, but really I don't have many outside of my family(i know my bad). I was so sad that you had one of those moments. Please let me help before it gets to that point again, PLEASE.

AJ said...

I have missed your posts, and I am glad you are back. It was also fun catching up with you today. It is so wonderful to have the Gospel everyday, but especially on those days when we feel we are at our lowest. I know we don't know each other that well, but please know that you are a woman whom I have grown to admire from a distance and even now that we are getting to know each other better. You are amazing, don't ever forget that.

Dory said...

I love you too and hope I can help out anytime. I'm glad your sister could come out, what a blessing.

Mama D said...

We all go through tough times. Some just hide it better than others...

I think the key here to you being on the road to recovery was recognizing you needed to change some things and then doing something to follow through. That is my downfall -- I just keep trying to do it all, keep ignoring the warning signs... There have been times in my life when my challenges would have been easier if I had followed your example.

Jamie, you are a wonderful person, balancing a tricky situation. You have family and friends who love you and will help in whatever way we can! Please remember you are NOT alone in this! I may not have 2 under 3 anymore, but I still remember how it felt. I guess I am one of many who help prove that it can be survived! :]

Hooray for wonderful sisters! So glad you are on the way to feeling better!

Patty said...

I'm so glad to see that you're back, and even better than that, that you're feeling better. I'm late in posting a response so everyone has already basically said it all, but I love you too and hope you'll call if there's anything I can do to help.

Speers Family said...

I miss you - hang in there.

Sarah said...

Jamie, if you feel like shaving your head, let me know first so I can grab the camera. I might just join you! I have missed your cute pictures too. And if you couldn't tell by the bajillion comments to your post, you are loved! No matter if you feel like a good mom or not, you have friends here who are willing to listen and/or help in any way. That includes me, by the way!

Anonymous said...

You are amazing in every since of the word. Not many women are honest with themselves, let alone with their friends. It is so important that you allow yourself time to stop and regroup. Even more important, to let those who care so much about you share that time and experience with you. There really is truth to finding strength in numbers. However, knowing that you know who to turn to untimately gives me courage each and everyday. I gain strength from you through your faith and diligence. Thanks for letting us be part of your lifes experiences. Love you! Mom

Poulsen Family said...

Wish I could have been there to help. If you ever need just to talk or cry or whatever, I'm more than willing to listen..call me. Love you!

Heather said...

I actually think you're amazing! You keep so many things under control when you have a spouse that is gone SO often. Keep up the great work and I'll keep you in my prayers.:)

Pampered Princess said...

Jamie, I'm sorry you were on the edge. Lock up the scissors and hang in there. I love being around you and can't wait to get to know you better. I think you are wonderful. I hope we can eventually go running together. But, until then, if you need a listening ear, I've got two of them!!!!! Love ya!!! Maura

chelle said...

Jamie-soo sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed lately. And as Shayleen has stated I too have added to that stress! SORRY!
Hope things are looking up. And I would love to help out any time you need it. I am a phone call away. :D